are you happy n0w marj??

last October 23, 2007 mer0n ak0ng naexperience nah prang halos lahat ng problema ko ay sabay sabay k0ng naisip at dumating... ang panahon nun ay maulan.. tlgang nakikisama saakin ang panahon... prang akong isang puno na dinaanan ng unos na hindi alam kung mapuputol ba o patuloy paring nakatayo.. buti pa ang puno tlga kayang lumaban sa unos ngunit kapag sobrang lakas ng hangin, ulan o kung ano pa man, ay bibigay na ito.... Nang araw na iyon, pakiramdam ko ay di maipaliwanag.. gustong umiyak, tumawa, at naisip ko pang "sana di nalang ako nabuhay sa mundong ito... at sana mamatay narin ako sa oras nah iyon"... Ngunit naisip ko rin na pano ang mga nagmamahal sakin? ako ang mananahimik habang sila nagdadalamhati? masakit din... .... wala na eh... tpos na eh... nangyari na ang dapat mangyari... di ko na maibabalik pa ang dati kong pagtingin sa kanya/kanila... haiiii... kung pwede k0 lmang banggitin sa talaarawang ito ang pinoproblema ko...




Ngunit, pagkatp0s ng araw na iyon, akala ko hanggang matapos ang buwan, taon, at kung ano pa man ay pinoproblema ko parin ang mga bagay na nangyari sa akin... Pero nagkamali ako... nagsara man ang pinto, meron namang bintana diba?! unti unting bumalik ang sigla ko at unti unti ring natatanggap ang katotohanan na wala na tlga.... Hanggang ngaun, napapangiti parin ako dahil sa kanya... pero, sa tingin ko, masasaktan din ako pagkatap0s ng lahat lahat ng ito... Dahil alam kong paikot ikot lamang ang buhay parang gulong....

-------~marJ~-------

Silent Sanctuary!

Maalala Mo Sana by Silent Sanctuary

MAALALA MO SANA
by: Silent Sanctuary

Natupad din ang aking pangarap
Na ipagtapat sayo
Ibubulong ko na lang sa alapaap
Ang sigaw ng damdamin ko

Sulyapan mo lang sana ang langit
Baka sakaling marinig ng puso mo
Ang tinig ko

Maalala mo sana ako
Dahil noon pa man sayo lang nakalaanang pag-ibig ko
Bawat sandali na ikaw ay kasama
Para bang di na tayo muling magkikita

Kaya ngayon aaminin na sayo
Na mahal na mahal kita
Maalala mo sana

Naitago ko pa ang lahat
Ng iyong mga liham
Unang ngiti mga yakap mo'y
Di naalis saking isipan

Tutugtog ako ng gitara
Baka sakaling sumagi sa isip mo
Ang mga pangako

Maalala mo sana ako
Dahil noon pa man sayo lang nakalaanang pag-ibig ko
Bawat sandali na ikaw ay kasama
Para bang di na tayo muling magkikita

Maalala mo sana ako
Dahil noon pa man sayo lang nakalaanang pag-ibig ko
Bawat sandali na ikaw ay kasama
Para bang di na tayo muling magkikita

Kaya ngayon aaminin na sayo
Na mahal na mahal kita
Na mahal na mahal kita
Maalala mo sana



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this is my new background song here in my blog..
:) hope you all like it! love yah!!

--marjjjjjjjj #05 XOXO Ü

it's so hard to faLL in Love This Way!!!

Honestly...I wish I was
a child forever
or a mentally retarded....
s0meh0w an abn0rmaL..
0r much better
be nuMb!
s0 thaT
I w0nt faLL inL0ve..
& I cant feeL this pain
in my heart ='(



How hard is it
t0 forget a person
in y0ur past?
Who once became your worLd..
Your Life...
Your everything...
Damn! hard! right!!
but what's the sense
0f aLL this?
if for HIM...
You are NOTHING


Bkit pag may mahal ka
kahit may nakikita kang mali
TAHIMIK ka..
kahit sobrang sakit na
TAHIMIK ka parin?
kelan ka kaya masasabing...
"SOBRANG MAHAL KITA
AT NASASAKTAN MO NA AKO!"

tarpauline for JEWEL!!

credits : ate jheng

CHARDWEL ROCKZZZZZZZZZ!




JEWEL MISCHE "THE ULTIMATE SWEETHEART"


JEWELERZ! WE LOVE YOU JEWEL!

but still.... I hate myself - brainwash!

quotez i'm feeling right now.. ='(

i feel so lonely.. sad.. i want to die!!

i hate myself - brainwash!

my horosc0pe..

haixxx.. i hate myself.. BRAIN WASH!

HOROSCOPE (09-13-07) "capricorn"

Capricorn (Dec 22 - Jan 19)

The Bottom Line
Stop wishing for things you don't have, and start working with what you do have.

In Detail
Stop wishing for things you don't have, and start working with what you do have. You don't have to accept things the way they are, but you do have to recognize that in order to change them, you have to do the work. Physically, your body can be changed -- but you have to have patience and know that things can't happen overnight. Emotionally, the same holds true -- do not put pressure on yourself to change how you feel immediately. Give yourself time!



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what duh!! ano ba yang horoscOpe q.. "simula nah para magbagong BUHAY!!"












"I HATE MYSELF - BRAIN WASH!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

pictures again..made by JEWELERZ!

made by JEWELERZ!

credits: ratz

credits: xjewelcassyx / kim / JC

credits: xu_got_surfx /surf

credits: xeingengrau /junix

credits: Qiao En/marj

credits: jheng_42 / jheng

credits: JewelGutierrez / JG

nxt time nalang po ung iba! ;)

Wanted: Earnest Prayer! <3 by juju

HELLO BEAUTIFUL FRIENDS!

God is in the business of showering me His blessings! And guys I cannot contain the joy,the excitement, and I suddenly felt the abrupt urge.. desire and a self-recognized NEED to feel all your presence. So finally, I wanna break my silence..... It has been sooooooooooooo long.. a month I guess of my seclusion and I terribly missed you all... our shared wisdom and expressed love...guyz haha, the thought of them brings me teary eyed. It feels good to be back. This blog is like a home, you know the feeling where you can sit down and relax... ahhhhhhh comfy. =)
I am in the moment that I don't wanna talk and linger about the past yet, so friends let's be futuristic ohk.. So, here it goes.. I have started already a shoot for my first movie DAGAW wherein I am playing the role of Richard Gutierrez's girlfriend.. ^_^ ! I feel so honestly honored and until now I am still overwhelmed that Big people in the BIZ has trusted me to do this project whew! I am so nervous, talk about being a newbie!.. And I remember a friend who shared to me about how hard it is for a neophyte to join a troop in a battlefield, the experienced tenured armies hate him as his inexperty to the job might cause the death even of a skilled warrior. VERY TRUE. How am I taking these?? Oh man! workshops, memorizing my script, research as I have to seriously internalize my role. Big thing is that our director in this film is no other than the legendary direk CHITO RONO..waaaaaaa seriously...yeah serious..very serious this is! PLEASE..please pray for me. I cannot do this alone without you my true friends back me up a spiritual warfare. And wait.. Not only that! Finally, your shouting has been heard, as saw on national TV I will be part of KAMANDAG where I will be playing Richards love interest. When Richard gave his message for me during the final judgement of Starstruck, I didn't take it seriously, as in you know, I was thinking that was just part of the program where he has to deliver a message..nothing special...Oh well, maybe work with him but not as his leading lady or in a loveteam. NOT A BIG DREAMER HERE, but God being my Blessor has really big surprises for me..looking back... there and then, I figured out Richard was sincere in that message and I find it so sweet of him to spare me his precious time. Are you guyz excited for me?? I hope so, coz I AM!!.. =) There is just one thing that worries me, my schooling.. =(
More leytah k?.. =)
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You've seen how I started. You joined me in my journey.. please hang on with me. I need to feel the grip of your hands to assure me everythings gonna be alright. Already? Again, pray for me po ha.. =)

~ Juju <3

this is juju's blog entry on her blog ofcourse! as of Monday, September 10. 2007!