not so good in english but still hoping you can understand it ^^

how to start ba?! don't know! but.. i guess i can start without any introduction. well i'm just here to say i miss you.. i'm really nervous now because i know YOU are reading this one.. right?! every night i'm thinking about you while hugging my very sweet teddy bear.. i hope that teddy bear is you but it's very impossible.. why? how? i don't know it too.. someday that question will be answered.. i know i'm wrong to say all this but i can't control myself.. maybe that's one of the reason why i HATE myself.. yes! i hate myself! but you proved to me to love myself by your actions and words.. and thanks for that.. you also proved to me that there's only one who loves me.. and that's you (ang kapal q tlga) hmmm.. i'm shy.. really really shy.. but i hope this can helps me to lessen my emotions how i miss you.. so that's all! thanks for everything.. happy monthsary! :)